Tuesday, August 4, 2009 ; 12:23 PM♥
I had a quality conversation last night with someone.
it started with me saying i'm so worried about my future because i don't know what i want and where i want to go.
then the whole conversation was about me having to decide my path myself, with no influence. its true, i have to choose what i want for myself. i cant be letting others decide for me. but that's the problem see, i don't know how to go about doing that. of course can't rush to decide but i'm just afraid that if i don't start thinking now, it will affect me somehow. its scary to think about where life will lead me to if i keep going with the flow. life is so good now, problem-free and happy, despite the stress i'm already immune to. what if life is fair & it wont be so much like this in the future?
i was advised to love myself before i love others. also not to let others influence me too much and that i'm lucky to have what i have. yes, i do appreciate everything i have. i'm blessed to have what i currently have & i love everyone around me. but then again, do i love myself as much.. that point hit me. cos i don't know. maybe what i need is something new to boost my life. maybe bungee jumping? that will be totally be out of the world. haha. now i think i would consider if given the opportunity. ohmygod. i need help. my dad says to visit a psychiatrist. tsk right.
